Changes

            "Yet you, Lord, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter;
                                 we are all the work of your hand. Isaiah 64:8"

A few weeks back I was reading my devotion and it was titled "I am the Potter". This is what it said "Talk with Me about what you are experiencing. Let My spirit guide you through treacherous waters. As you move through the turbulent stream with Me, let circumstances mold you into the one I desire you to be. Say yes to your Potter as you go through the day." Through the past two years, we have had our share of storms and currents. I know that we will always go through storms But those words keep playing over in my head lately, "Let My spirit guide you through treacherous waters." I have a tendency to fight the current and try to "control" everything. 
         
Jayson is being laid off in June, and for the longest time he didn't have a job offer. I just kept praying that something would open. I went home one weekend last month and I remember standing in church, weeping, scared and torn. I was fighting the current, I was too prideful to walk down that aisle and admit I needed help. We couldn't do this without His help. He had always provided in the past, but time was passing by and I was scared he wouldn't find a job. I needed someone to pray with me, that a job would come open. Our pastor called one more time for anyone that needed to be prayed with. I let my pride go and walked out. A very sweet lady prayed with me, who had been in our shoes before. (God always places people in our lives for a reason) I laid it at his feet. And walked away, within a week, Jayson got a call about a job. A job at the main plant in Charleston, SC. It would be a permanent job, not a contract. Praise God! 

As most people know that are close to us, we had to give up our home in Beaufort. That has been a 2 year battle that is finally over. The house is gone, it is no longer ours. Some days I still don't know why I am so attached to that place, but there again it is where our family was born. We brought Jacob home in that house. But I now I know that in order for Jayson & I to be where we are today spiritually we had to almost lose it all. 

My childhood was influenced greatly by my grandparents. I spend most of my time with them and we even lived with them at one point when I was a young child. They are like parents to me. In the past year, I have watched them battle many different health problems. But the hardest has been watching my Nana lose her memory. She is my rock and my best friend. When I felt like a storm was coming she would remind me things will work out. And now I have to remind her that we will get through this one day at a time. She is a strong women and I am the women I am because of her. She has always kept me in line. I am so fortunate to have her in my life and so grateful for her. So now I pray for the good days, for the days when she can talk to me. And on the bad days we make do. 

Our preacher said a few weeks back your either coming out of a storm, getting ready to go through one and in the middle of one. As for me I feel the rain coming. Even though I am scared. I know He stands beside me, and He will give me strength. So I will continue to praise him through the rain because through my weakness I am strong because of Him.  

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

The Reason Why I haven't Blogged

I am sorry I haven't blogged in forever. It has not been intentional. I decided to return back to school this past fall and continue my education and hopefully in 2 months I will have an additional license for MRI. I also had to have surgery around Christmas, so needless to say it has been pretty chaotic in this household.  In the coming months I am afraid to say it may even get more busy. I don't know what the Lord has in store for us.

What has Mr. Jacob been up these days? Jacob is Jacob, there is no child like him I have ever met. He is such a blessing to our lives. He keeps me going everyday. His smile and his spunk is truly a gift from God. You could be having the worst day and his laughter and smile will brighten any dark room. I am so blessed to watch him grow up. I cannot believe he will be 3 in 4 months! Where does the time go. His speech and vocabulary are improving each and everyday. He use to always tell us "Night, Night" when it was time for him to go to sleep. Last night he said "Goodnight, Daddy." My heart just melted. He is such an active child, but so much like his Dad. He loves to climb and explore. But yet he's like me in so many ways, always wants to be on the go. He has changed so much in such a little amount of time. I know that if I don't do anything else right in my lifetime I have done right by him.

Amidst the possible changes coming in the next couple months, I was reminded that even though things change around us constantly, one thing remains unchanged, God is Good and God is able. He will never change nor leave us. That there will always be storms in our lives, we just have to have faith in Him that he will bring us through this storm. Jayson and I have survived some pretty tough patches. I know that we will survive this one.